♥ Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Back to reality
Just came back from Hongkong!
Suddenly recalled how I was telling nini on the 2nd day,
that how I can't believe it's only our 2nd day in hk.
And now I'm back at Singapore blogging -.-
On the plane back to Singapore,
I was thinking how did the 6 days just fly past,
and I'm like coming back to reality.
The hot weather, registrations of university, finding a job,
sending out applications & going for interviews,
piano lessons starting, many things at home that I need to do, etc.
I'll blog about hk trip when I get all the photos from nini!
So, back to reality.
Should I enter into a UNI this year? Next year?
Find a job? what job?
Which UNI should I choose?
So many things I want to learn, do I have the time?
Is all my passion long-term or just something I'm passionate about for 3 minutes.
三分钟热度
That's something about myself that I hate.
I can't stay passionate about something for long.
Even if it's food, I can't eat a big portion of the same food,
but a lot of different varieties of food.
I get sick of something very quickly and want a change constantly.
That's why when I've decided on something I want to do in the future,
I'm sometimes quite hesitant to go on full blast to pursue it.
Will I still be as passionate about it as I am now?
Will I be bored 3 years down the road and choose other options?
Then wouldn't the 3 years of hard work be for nothing?
That's also one of the reason I've achieved nothing till now.
Piano stopped at grade 6.
My pipa stopped at grade 9 (Diploma is the final grade btw)
I've completed NONE of the things I've started.
Swimming? Nope, stopped at bronze or silver.
French class? Nope, gave up after 1 year.
Violin? Nope, haven't even taken a single grade.
When you lost passion about something, doing it would be a chore.
One thing I'm passionate about now is traveling.
I wanna earn money to travel.
Someone I know works at a department store now,
as a salesperson.
Stocks up toys, standing beside the toys while waiting for the time to past,
11am to 10pm everyday.
Only go out during holidays or on leave.
Going to travel once in a while only when they have earned enough money.
After spending all their money in one trip,
come back and work like a dog to earn back all the money.
That's not the life many people want,
yet is what most of the people are leading.
It's rare enough for someone to be able to get a job with a good salary now.
But it's even more rare for someone to get a job they are passionate about with a good salary.
My mama brought me closer to reality by saying that's how it works.
Some people's destiny is just to be an employee,
work, get married, have kids, and earn a basic salary.
Some get to the middle management and is happy enough.
Few get to the top management and earn a satisfying salary.
Everything is in their destiny,
if it's fated to be yours, it will be.
If your life is like this, it will turn out to be that way eventually.
There's something in life that you'll never get.
But I still feel that you have to work to get you want.
Not everything lies in your destiny.
You can't change fate but you can control your destiny.
Long post of words with no actions.
On a side note,
I miss hk's weather! :(
How I wish Singapore have 4 seasons.
