♥ Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Busy !
This is the last chiong period before we graduate.
And man! it's the busiest time of my life i think! (Although i say it everytime)
Still... I am trying to enjoy the every bit of time I have with my poly mates,
and in NP.
Cause this is the last month I'm gonna be studying in the school (I hope).
Woke up to YM telling me that we should check our mail cause he received a mail saying he failed MRSH
People who receive the mail = Failed.
& I received it.
Heart literally dropped when I saw the mail :(
But not going for re-test since I got 3.5marks below passing mark.
Don't think it's going to make a significant difference.
Been to NTU's briefing?
And I can't get.. into any of the related course.
Not even borderline.
I'm not pretty, not skinny,
not smart (that is for sure),
not outgoing,
and the NTU & failed test is making me even more feel like I suck at studying.
Even the only confident aspect that I used to have which is music,
I kinda feel like I'm not that confident anymore cause of all the sucky results I always get.
I always tremble so much during instrument exams, and forget everything.
All the hardwork and practice I put in will be gone in an instant when I start to get nervous.
And I can't stop myself from being nervous.
If I'm really that confident in music, i shouldn't be so nervous right?
I don't know,
suddenly feel so useless and there's nothing that I can be/do after I graduate.
That is, if I do graduate. *pray*
I'll try to be optimistic and say I'll find my place in the world someday.
The future is full of uncertainties,
but for now I'm just glad to be able to hold on to the memories I created in the past.
I'm gonna take one baby step at a time and enjoy my youth while I still have it.
LOL.
hahahahahahahahahahahahha,
that's all bye.
